Holy Cow...time certainly has a way of speeding by anymore. It use to seem so slow and the older I get the faster it goes!!!
It amazes me that my cousins are all grown up, most of them married and building families of their own. It use to bother me that I was the oldest grandchild, but couldn't have the first great-grandchild. But "it is, what it is"...there is some plan for me but I think I have taken several detours and one day it will all come together, either here or on the other side.
I have thought much about my life and why things have played out as they have...why didn't I get married in my 20's and have children? I always thought there would be children in my life and there are...they are the children of my cousins.
And let's not forget my four-legged furry children who I adore, sometimes they are as much as I can handle!
I talk to my Heavenly Father regularly and try to be grateful for the small miracles. Like today, I asked that the lights on 900 South stay green all the way to work and they did! So I was on time!!!
I have a friend who has many health issues but she is one of the funniest and most spritual people I know. She blogs and has such great things to say, especially about her Heavenly Father. I am grateful that she is in my life even tho we don't spend a lot of time together. She makes me smile!
I have decided that my "mission" in life is to be a caretaker...not exactly what I had in mind growing up. But I believe I am were I am suppose to be...my boss and I have conversations about what I believe and others. I can't give him concrete answers to why I believe a lot of what I believe, I just know I do!
I don't think I have ever questioned having a Heavenly Father. And the bad things that have happened are not because He didn't love me...they happened because of my choices or someone else's choices.
I read on a church sign recently: Fear God and man's sole purpose is to obey the commandments. Wow...what a concept, "Fear God"...it's not in my make-up to fear Him that I believe in with all my heart. Do I believe He loves me less because I don't go to church? I don't think so, I know He knows and understands what is my soul better than I do.
I am an open book (except maybe to my mom for her own protection)...I have no idea what this year is going to hold for me, but I am going to make sure that I find the joy and gratitude in each day!
Oh yeah, January was about Chicago and seeing my cousin Charles, his wife Joyce and their three beautiful girls. I was so impressed by Charles and Joyce's parenting skills...and the girls were so sweet! We had a birthday party for my mom. The girls made a big sign and Joyce made a wonderful cake! It was so much fun and so relaxing!
February has passed so quickly...soon it will be March and Spring is just around the corner and I still haven't got my 2008 and 2009 Christmas cards out...oh well, it is, what it is"...
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